For those who have read this blog since it began already 2 years ago, may noticed that my writing has been fewer and less, well… interesting. The truth is, I’m not feeling very much motivated to type anything. With my Facebook and Twitter accounts I just don’t feel the need to share my thoughts here even if I have the time to blog about something.
This last weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about things (my websites included) and I see that’s the only thing I’m capable of: thinking and doing nothing about it. This makes me a little depressed and between crossroads. I feel that everything I learn, do and live is not useful for others. I want to share my knowledge with everyone, I want to show that I have a purpose in life and not just live it waiting for the time I leave this World.
My intention in starting this blog was for the most part to write about my interests and my thoughts. However, 2 years have passed and it turned out to be nothing more as a simple blog where occasionally shows up some cool subjects. Why do I blog? Is it for self promotion? Sure. But I blog because I like to write and I like to write about things that interest me and share them with you guys (look at me repeating myself again and again).
In the beginning of 2010, I promised myself that I would be more social and go out more often spending less time in front of a computer. I’m happy with this and I’m glad to see, 3 months later, that I truly have good friends that don’t mock me about the way I am and how I live. However, I’m a lonely person. Always was and always will be. It’s in my nature.
There was a famous singer named António Variações that sang: “Não deixes para amanhã o que podes fazer hoje” (“Don’t leave for tomorrow what can be done today”) – original version was done by the great Amália Rodrigues. This song shows exactly what I’ve been doing. All though it’s common sense to everyone these words I feel this way over and over and over again. I know I must change my way of thinking but it’s what I’ve been doing for the last 15 years(!). I feel I need some guidance but to whom should I ask? My parents? My family? My friends? A specialist? No one? Perhaps the last option is the best for me. I’m usually the type of guy that doesn’t like to share my inner feelings with someone (once again, it’s in my nature).
Oh well, apparently this blog post is a little big that I hoped for. I think it’s time to end. I’ll just leave one more thing: I promise to write here more often and if you haven’t notice it yet, I’m going to start and write my posts in English. Why am I doing this? Because I felt like it 🙂